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Fourth Street Fantasy, Franco-fête

Goodness me, I'm tired. Sadly the timing didn't work out, so I'm going to miss attending Fourth Street this time around. Wishing all my friends who aren't missing it a good time. In some cases, I'll have the chance to see them again at Farthing, which everything is booked for, and less is happening around it than this year's Fourth Street, so it's likely that I'll make it there. Come to think of it, who of you are going to Farthing this year?

You can answer the poll here, or there. I'm reading both. I can't seem to get the lj poll to display correctly. Go vote there.


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A classic five things

1. Yes it's been awhile. I've been reading still, albeit less frequently than in the past, but a series of events flattened me in terms of my belief that I could write intelligibly, so I've been holding back from saying much. I'm not done dealing with that, but it's been long enough.

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Long weekend - Mill Race

Well I'm tentatively optimistic about the Executive Committee meeting, but that's not based on a great deal of information. @leahbobet and others on twitter mostly. We'll see how it shakes out.

Off to Cambridge for the Mill Race Folk Festival in a few hours. My sister isn't coming this year so I may not be eating at the Black Badger this time, but I'll still almost certainly have something at Cafe 13. My parents aren't sure what they're going to do as far as their usual at The Golden Kiwi Pub with new food restrictions. Hopefully this helps the Tri-city area's communities a bit. With the Galt Knitting Company, COMDEV, and RIM situations sponsorships and employment aren't doing as well. For those of you who have it, I hope that you enjoy the long weekend.

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Core services review - Executive committee meeting

For those who might be interested in seeing Toronto City Hall's proceedings in today's Executive Committee meeting, Rogers is streaming it here. If one is in Toronto, it's on cable channels 10 and 63. I'm unfortunately not, and I need to head out now, which means that when I get back, I'll be behind, and won't have a recording that I can view. If there are particular speakers one is interested in seeing, the list of speakers is at the calendar listing here. Note that the order of speakers may change subject to motions carried by council. The one there is out of date as deputants with children and with disabilities will be permitted to speak first.

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Canada Day long weekend, Pride, Fourth Street Fantasy

Greetings to new reader tiger_spot. It was nice to see you at Fourth Street. Your journal looks interesting, so I'll probably follow you, but I haven't actually gotten to know you, so it'll wait till I've worked through my old posts privacy settings.

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Going!

Hah! I might have decent pattern matching, but I'm not so good at seeing an individual object I'm looking for in a mass of others. Which is to say that it was on a shelf I had already searched at least four times. Now to sleep. And then to packing.

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Fourth Street Fantasy

Bah. It's looking increasingly unlikely that I'll find my travel documents in time to make my flight. While I haven't cancelled my hotel bookings etc yet, I don't know that one should expect to see me there either. As problems go, this is comparatively minor, but it's still disappointing since for a number of friends, this is the one time this year I'm likely to see them in person.

Well, likely if I don't make other plans anyway. Some of them don't live/are moving soon and won't be living all that far away. Perhaps I can visit another time.

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Luminato 2011

I just came back from seeing Part B of One Thousand and One Nights at, and commissioned for, Luminato (big multidisciplinary art festival in the city, runs about 10 days, this year's major theme is the Arab World). I'm seeing Part A tomorrow. It's a big work, fairly large cast, pretty diverse. A lot of the stories in the Shahrazad cycle are fairly simple, but like many tales of that nature don't suffer a lack of significance just because of the lack of complexity (Just for reminding me of that is something that I'm grateful for. I may not be able to apply it in my writing, but the awareness helps.). One of the running themes of course is different ways in which storytelling, or the stories that people tell, have power, give power, though frequently not enough to keep one from harm. It's definitely a big, ambitious production, not in a showy special effects kind of way, but in a show you and affect you sort of way. There's shared history, and experience, ancient and recent behind it. I don't think that it's entirely successful at it, but it's impressive nonetheless, and I'm really glad for it and Luminato.

A show I'm looking forward to is a double bill of (re)Birth: E.E. Cummings in Song; and Window on Toronto, created by the Soulpepper Academy. I got to see a preview of the former at the Cabaret Festival last Autumn, and came away deeply impressed by Mike Ross. It's closing this Wednesday, which still gives me time to see it. Check out the clip if it seems like the sort of thing you'd like.

There are so many things at this year's Luminato that I'm interested in but I haven't gotten to see, but that's always going to be the case in a city like this one and being a person with broad interests. I could schedule myself to see more, but more is needed than just bum in chair. My head and energy need to work with it too, and it's just not happening at the moment.

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Caution, Care, and Communication

I'm a cautious person, conservative when it comes to risk taking. When under the influence of strong emotion I am wary of acting, of doing something ill considered. The phrase 'in the heat of the moment' is a thing of some horror to me. This is partly by way of explanation of why I shut down most participation in online dialogue for about eight months.

My sole remaining grandparent is and has been in particularly ill health of late - in and out of hospital a few times, organ failure, heart valve infection, stroke like symptoms, etc…etc… none of which are all that unexpected in a person less than a decade from being a centenarian, and it could certainly be worse. Care is not all-consuming, but certainly consumes a lot. There's a loss of connection, neither of us can really recognize the other anymore. There are generational/cultural issues around behavioural norms for care, ethical issues around responsibility for past behaviour affecting how to relate to the person there now. There's seeing the effects of care, emotional stress, the not knowing (multiple instances of death in days being likely will do that too) on other family. The draining effect has also been a factor in not saying much. It's been difficult. It is difficult.

I am aware that others whose situations are worse have certainly responded differently in ways one could say are better socially speaking. Kudos to them.

I'm not writing this because it's over, or for sympathy, but I do have things I want to say now, people I want to stay in touch with (I have been following along mostly), and energy to do so for the moment. I just had to say this first or it would have felt like a sort of lying. I think... I'm okay for conversation again.

And that's about all I feel comfortable saying on a public blog. Yes there's a lot that's been left out. Not that I don't want to talk about it. I could see talking being helpful - but more in e-mail or verbal format. I'm going to take expressions of general support and sympathy as having been made because I think I know you well enough to take a degree of empathy as a given, and thank you in advance, in order to save you from trying to think of a way to say it that isn't trite, or emptied of meaning by force of repetition. Expressions of specific support, anecdotes, offers of conversation, words of advice I might not have heard or need reminding of are of course welcome. If I'm mistaken about someone and they are delighted or have an otherwise unusual reaction to this situation, I won't necessarily feel good about it but I would prefer it if I knew so that I could update my mental model of that person accordingly, so don't feel restricted to only saying things that are in the normal realm of appropriate.

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So long Eric So

For some reason, the most immediate culturally prompted impulse when I encountered this piece of news about an hour ago was to swear. I didn't, because it didn't personally make sense to me, but the part of my head that presents my conscious mind with normal social behavioural options was prompting it pretty hard.

He's the second person out of my high school cohort of ~83 people that I'm aware of to have already died. Both of them good people. Both of whom I liked and admired.

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